Diaries of March

Maybe I sounded crazy and disconnected, but I felt it the scented air as I walk through the building, Couldn't even control the craziness to hide it though hard as stones to the bloody strings facts that are delusional, but I miss you I miss a lie, a drop of rain, a sound of thunder impending happiness adjacent to the edge, counting days to finish it up, finish us up  dreams are shown mistakenly I lay down to the sweet sin of life I bow down to desires  yet I stand up so high to pride, Mixed indescribable feelings charge the air I breath  I've been there before, I've been there,  I felt okay remembering the situation, the hard lessons that burned my skin and left un-demolished scars of life, what else can I say, to what I know that lays in the future to what I knew before its going to be life after you again,  the only thing remains the same is the sentence but a different you a...

Sometimes, I really forget how much I hate my family, no seriously all this crap they load my shoulders with And yes I did think about running away sometimes, this might seem the most silly decision ever but yes its on my list, I hate them to the extent that I cant act normally with them being here, of course I do NOT include my mother from this all, I don't think I will be here writing if she wasn't with me in this all, although sometimes she gets on my nerves but I swear I'm ready to give her my soul, I always pray God to take years from my life and then add  it to hers she means the world to me if not more, but the rest of the family are just crap in the hood, they are dusty, rusty, black, foggy, negative, cold I can say everything that doesn't make you feel good, that's what they are! they always get on my nerves! ALWAYS, and sometimes I do drive myself to forget and get used to this, but its all keep on showing up, They never ...