"What's worse, new wounds which are so painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not always the case is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again."

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